At the right time, I, the Lord, will make it happen.
Isaiah 60:22 (excerpt)
Welcome to my blog! It has been a long time in the making…but at the right time God made it happen. When I say a long time, I mean years. I began the process of starting my own ministry website more than a decade ago. I was working on it at the same time that I was getting ready to release my first book. Life happened. That is not an excuse but an explanation. As my book was being released a major personal tragedy hit my life. I shut down for almost two years. I stepped away from all of the things that I had been working on.
I still went to work and to church and functioned in life. However, it was the first time in my walk with God that I didn’t feel saved at all. I felt like God had abandoned me. Really to quote my mama, “I couldn’t find God with a search warrant.” Veteran Christians don’t usually say things like that but it was true. God seemed so distant in the time that I needed Him the most. I know He never left me, but in those two years I mostly couldn’t feel Him.
That distance that I experienced was God making good on a promise that He made to me. That promise came in the form of a warning. It went something like this, “I am going to use your life in a greater way, but it is going to cost you.” I had no idea the price that I would pay to be used of God.
Let Me Show You My Scars
I don’t write or minister from the place of being an expert on anything. I share from the vantage point of being a relentless survivor. I am intent on sharing my victories and the struggles that God has helped me to overcome. In the last 13 years… I have been writing lots… but mostly in the shadows. God has used my words to encourage people who never even knew I wrote them. Then He decided it was time. Time to step fully into the grace and the gifts that He put inside of me. Time to live what I have been preaching, that I AM a Gift WITH a Gift.
Time to let people know that you can endure pain, trauma, even humiliation and still come out better and victorious.
Flawesome!
I am not a perfect Christian, parent, or woman. But I am God’s daughter. Perfectly flawesome! Flawed and awesome! Full of imperfections and faith. I am just a girl from Fresno California who has been saying YES to God for many years. I am here to challenge you to strive for a Vibrant Christian Life. Let’s be great together!